I can't live like this anymore.
I live alone and moved to a new city in May so I don't know many people here and all my friends (bar 1 who lives about 30 mins away and is often working at weekends) don't live anywhere near here.
When I get home from work to my empty flat and just go for runs and watch amazon prime every evening, I feel miserable. I've managed to go and stay with friends and family some weekends (**** the 'rules') but this weekend I'm stuck in my flat doing nothing and seeing no one, just watching TV all day. I talk to friends and family everyday on the phone but it's not the same and won't ever be.
I just want to go out and make some friends and build a life here but all the clubs/meetups aren't running and everywhere has face nappies. I tried to go rock climbing last night and when I got there everyone except those on the actual walls were wearing muzzles- I was the only one wearing a visor instead and felt so uncomfortable. I've tried to sign up for volunteering but nowhere is taking anyone unless it's 'from home' which completely and utterly defeats the point.
My grandmother passed yesterday from cancer because her chemo has been cancelled since February and no one gives a shit about anyone who's negatively affected by all this hysteria in anyway- especially not those with cancer who've had their lives cut short.
I've just had enough, I can't cope, I feel completely lifeless and can't even bring myself to go for a run or clean my flat. This isn't a 'life' worth 'living' and after having read an article last night about life not being normal until 2021, I've lost all hope.
I know this isn't an emotional support forum but I thought maybe some of you might feel the same way and I just wanted to connect and feel less alone/ help others who feel the same.
The more you push your view onto someone the more resistant they become. I’ve realised some people cannot deal with it and can only deal with so much. Also they have stresses in their lives and their capacity to cope would Take them over the top. i think that’s why suicides are up, people are losing hope.You have to look after your and your family, the main thing is do not let this divide you from loved ones. The governme t have messed everything up so far I’m sure they ll do the same with the roll out. Also once people see the side affects that should scare enough people. Hope .. don’t lose it..
I hear you. We all do. People's true colours have been shown. I've been isolated mentally from university peers because when I spoke out, they all called me selfish before hearing my side of the argument. I've had to cut the chord with my best friend because she said she would agree that those who say no to being vaccinated should be restricted. I sent her the news today that Qatar airlines are making people vaccinate themselves before they're allowed to fly, and she said "I need to read the full article with my boyfriend". I'm right there with you. I'm raging, shaking. I'm sorry this isn't helpful. I cannot see the light right now either.
curtinj25 - Are you going to the rally on 26th September? You will be with lots of like minded people there. I'll be wearing a woolly hat and a cat t shirt with 'Catzilla' on it. Come up and say hello if you see me! ❤️
I know how you feel I feel exactly the same today I was in the car with my uncle to go to the decathlon he started saying about how I am at a greater risk of infecting people because I choose not to wear a mask I felt shit about that even though I don't feel that way I almost felt that I didn't want to spend so much time with because of the way he think just repeats what is said on mainstream media I find it hard to meet new people as well when I am on the bus I find it kind of depressing no one will sit next to you its not exactly the same but I imagined how someone who had aids would feel that people would be fearfull of catching it even though you cant it can get very lonely sometimes I really want to be part of a group who can support each other through this tough period
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=naL9j279bcU
Notbuyingit - Getting the upper-hand in all this is numbers, and more numbers when should you take to the streets is the name of the game. When all those who flocked to the beaches to get out and about on those very hot and sunny weekend defied 'the rules' they showed us how it was done, too many for the authority's to handle and they didn't do a thing.
That's what I thought but the company I work for (who shall remain nameless) has increasingly become worse in its attitude towards long serving staff as recent tribunals have proven (so why not their service users, I guess)! I've been on the lookout for something else for a good while now after working there for nearly 4 years. Our acting boss (we haven't had a stable replacement since our long serving one left) basically said that we had the right to withdraw a travel related service if the kids didn't wear masks as we'd be likely to get the grief from drivers.
He clearly doesn't know me that well though as I have been known to be confrontational. That is sometimes called for with said drivers anyway as you can probably imagine.This is why I think it's going to become a daily grind having to defend my position whilst working. Now the great news on the 'u-turn' has come through as well, I'm just overjoyed! 😒
I really hope you're right about the revolution! Apparently it's OK to have a revolution as long as you hold up a BLM sign in big groups of people but I digress 🙄...Keep your chin up: Enough of us are getting more fed up, I believe!
Surely children with special needs are exempt from wearing face coverings? Especially children with sensory issues or learning disabilities. Mind you that poses it's own challenges, having to defend them constantly from public scrutiny. I already had to do that sometimes when working with adults with LD in the past for various reasons (2 years ago), there's enough prejudice towards vulnerable people out there already without all this mask crap.
Thank you for your lovely message, it's definitely helpful to know I'm not alone (even outside of KBF I've recently started to notice others speaking up to, maybe a revolution of some kind is within reach). 🙂
I'm so sorry to hear about your gran. What is going on is so cruel and inhumane! I work with special needs kids and I'm dreading going back to work as it involves being out in the community as a role model which means I will be forced to wear a mask and make the kids with whom I work do the same. I completely relate to your feelings of hopelessness and depression as I'm sure many others here do - Know you aren't alone in that regard! (As little a consolation as that is). As another poster said, there is Meetups.com but it sounds like they're sold on this monumental lie as well. (For that poster: I wonder if there is a way around their guidelines, i.e: naming the group KBF (insert town / city here) and making the listing deliberately coded?) I wish I could make you feel better about this but in place of that, all I can suggest is keep visiting these boards and get all the support you can. Sending love your way from someone who is usually a huge misanthrope! ❤️
Well said Dave. Bloody well said. Consider your comment liked at least 20 times!
I've just realised, we're not feeling depressed, but oppressed
Thing about trying to convince anyone about all this is that you end up feeling annoyed, frustrated and hopeless knowing you are right, and they just carry on
oblivious. Take hope from the fact that given time dawn will break and you will has the satisfaction of feeling vindicated, so hang on in there. We have to win.
I understand what your going to.
Due to a health condition I've been pretty isolated for 4years, totally for 2 years since I moved to a new area.
I found it difficult before, but seeing this madness makes it hard, more so that the vast majority of population are just accepting it, that's what really scares me and depresses me the most.
Yesterday I went to see my mam 2hour journey away, went to a cafe, they refused me entry because I refused to use hand sanitizer.
My mam and step dad still have them there business. I just went home, totally wasted trip.
Just had a big falling out with my mam about it. She claims to sympathise with me, yet can't say "no" to the new abnormal.
She was the only person I speak to.
I suffer periods of depression, more so now I have a health condition that has left me unable to work and very isolated.
I'm aware I don't think I'll be alive in a year's time. But I'm not going quietly.
I will live by the mantra "give me liberty or give me death".
I fear it won't be long before those if us prepared to resist and fight back will be labelled as domestic terrorists and the last three decades of erroding civil rights and liberties under anti terrorism legislation will be used against us.
I'm prepared to fight this, I mean fight, if/ when it comes to it.
It's possible this post will be enough for them to come for me. Let them. I won't go easily, like I said liberty or death.
Sorry I haven't offered you "support" here, just trying to say you're not alone.
And perhaps be thankfull that you still have a job, and friends even if at a distance or away often.
There's some of us in total isolation, even before covid nonsense started
Be grateful for what you do have. And keep fighting the tyranny
Thanks for your message. Meetup have refused my group because it did not meet their lousy guidelines, apparently. I sent them a reply with one word: cowardice.
I know what it's like, having spent the last 5 solitary months working from home.
I've just started a new meetup group @ https://www.meetup.com/Guildford-Resist-New-Normal-Meetup-Group/. If anyone is interested in getting this going, let me know and we can arrange the first meetup.
I am so very, very sorry to hear of your Grandma passing away - this must be such a difficult time for you 😔
Life must seem so hopeless for you right now especially with out having family and friends near you . There is a site called ‘MeetUps ‘ which is a group that has sites all around the UK that arrange events and meet ups for all sorts of activities . Perhaps take a look on there to see what’s going on in your area ?
If you like swimming then why not look at Wild Swimming groups in your area who meet up to swim in the sea, rivers or lakes together . Wild swimming has been proven to help with depression and raising the spirits . If you are into more intellectual pursuits then again there are many ‘debating/ philosophical groups that meet online around the UK .
Meditation is a very helpful thing too as is going out walking /running in the outdoors - particularly in more rural settings . Remember you are NEVER alone - there are many help sites out there eg Samaritans if you are feeling desperate and cannot see any light at the end of the tunnel right now . You are grieving and this is a double whammy for you so you need to go easy on yourself - self care is very important .Be gentle with yourself at this very difficukt time if real loss.
Things WILL turn out alright , the world will be a better place . There is much good taking place behind closed doors - evil will not win this ‘war’. There is a major shift taking place on this planet and if we stand strong , keep visualising the world we want to see and live in, then this will really help you and the world to become that .
Trust and have faith . It is not what happens to us but how we RESPOND to events . We always have a choice of how we respond to anything - even to all that is going on at the present time .
I am sending you much love and big hugs , fellow soul 🤗
Thanks everyone, it means a lot <3
And so sorry to hear that you are all struggling too.
Good to know, I'm not the only one who can see this nonsense for what it is. All this fuss over a virus with a survival rate of nearly 99.7 and so, so much completely unnecessary suffering as a result.
Just wish I could go to sleep and wake up and it's all a bad dream.
I'd even have the vaccine right now if it was available (whether it's certified safe or not) and I have a needle phobia. Anything that would give me my freedom back, I would do at this point I don't care what it takes. The only thing I can't do is face the masks because my reasons for struggling to wear them for extended periods of time are very personal and I don't want to have to explain them to every Karen in the supermarket who throws a hissy-fit.
Thanks, everyone :)
So much sadness and pain caused by the unnecessary hysteria that is surrounding us. I hear you, I wish I could hug you, though you are physically alone at the moment I know you realise there are many of us 'with you' who have either gone through similar times and/or empathise with you. As Busker said it is good if you can turn your feelings into something you can use, go for a walk somewhere green, put your tunes on - I have had to create a 'dance me happy' playlist, it has songs on that I can bop around in my kitchen to, it helps me, something similar might help you. xx
TJC you're a ⭐️
To you lovely people. It‘s a horrid time for us lot on here, although there are lots of us it still feels that we are alone. Keep your chin up and remember although its not the same as a real hug, if there comes a time when we can meet up there will be so many hugs we will be all hugged out 😍