I can't live like this anymore.
I live alone and moved to a new city in May so I don't know many people here and all my friends (bar 1 who lives about 30 mins away and is often working at weekends) don't live anywhere near here.
When I get home from work to my empty flat and just go for runs and watch amazon prime every evening, I feel miserable. I've managed to go and stay with friends and family some weekends (**** the 'rules') but this weekend I'm stuck in my flat doing nothing and seeing no one, just watching TV all day. I talk to friends and family everyday on the phone but it's not the same and won't ever be.
I just want to go out and make some friends and build a life here but all the clubs/meetups aren't running and everywhere has face nappies. I tried to go rock climbing last night and when I got there everyone except those on the actual walls were wearing muzzles- I was the only one wearing a visor instead and felt so uncomfortable. I've tried to sign up for volunteering but nowhere is taking anyone unless it's 'from home' which completely and utterly defeats the point.
My grandmother passed yesterday from cancer because her chemo has been cancelled since February and no one gives a shit about anyone who's negatively affected by all this hysteria in anyway- especially not those with cancer who've had their lives cut short.
I've just had enough, I can't cope, I feel completely lifeless and can't even bring myself to go for a run or clean my flat. This isn't a 'life' worth 'living' and after having read an article last night about life not being normal until 2021, I've lost all hope.
I know this isn't an emotional support forum but I thought maybe some of you might feel the same way and I just wanted to connect and feel less alone/ help others who feel the same.