I can't live like this anymore.
I live alone and moved to a new city in May so I don't know many people here and all my friends (bar 1 who lives about 30 mins away and is often working at weekends) don't live anywhere near here.
When I get home from work to my empty flat and just go for runs and watch amazon prime every evening, I feel miserable. I've managed to go and stay with friends and family some weekends (**** the 'rules') but this weekend I'm stuck in my flat doing nothing and seeing no one, just watching TV all day. I talk to friends and family everyday on the phone but it's not the same and won't ever be.
I just want to go out and make some friends and build a life here but all the clubs/meetups aren't running and everywhere has face nappies. I tried to go rock climbing last night and when I got there everyone except those on the actual walls were wearing muzzles- I was the only one wearing a visor instead and felt so uncomfortable. I've tried to sign up for volunteering but nowhere is taking anyone unless it's 'from home' which completely and utterly defeats the point.
My grandmother passed yesterday from cancer because her chemo has been cancelled since February and no one gives a shit about anyone who's negatively affected by all this hysteria in anyway- especially not those with cancer who've had their lives cut short.
I've just had enough, I can't cope, I feel completely lifeless and can't even bring myself to go for a run or clean my flat. This isn't a 'life' worth 'living' and after having read an article last night about life not being normal until 2021, I've lost all hope.
I know this isn't an emotional support forum but I thought maybe some of you might feel the same way and I just wanted to connect and feel less alone/ help others who feel the same.
I've been through exactly what you're going through.
I also live alone, although not in a city or town, and know nobody to talk with in person at all, not even on the phone.
If you can turn that feeling you have into anger, not aggressive, lash out anger, but pure anger at what is being done to us all. It's much, much more empowering believe me.
It's not much to offer I know, and even knowing there are many, many people feeling what you are right now may not help for long either. You are much stronger than you may think or feel, you just are, believe it.
Watch some of the videos from ordinary people sent to Anna Brees on her YT Channel, it may help you along and not feel so alone.
I would without hesitation give you a hug if I could right now, be very, very angry that that is being denied. Love to you from me.
Thanks for the recommendation for the YouTube channel- has been really helpful knowing other people are seeing how damaging this all is! 🙂
So sorry to hear about your Grandma.💔 I am awaiting surgery. Just received a letter today. My hospital appointment has been cancelled for the 3rd time in a row now, and has been re-scheduled again for mid-September. If anybody has the nerve to apprehend me for not wearing a mask or social distancing I will rip their bloody head off! 😬 Fortunately nobody has so far.
There are some lovely people on the Anna Brees channel I agree. Some stories are heartbreaking, some uplifting. Ordinary people, all with intelligence and common sense.
I totally feel you about if anyone dares to challenge you when you've already been through so much. If anyone challenges me for wearing a visor instead at the funeral next week they will meet Regina George's evil twin 😮and I'm sure they will regret it 😛
The youtube channel has been very helpful actually, just knowing others see how ridiculous and damaging this all is. :)
Finding us is the first step back. As Busker (Bless him!) I am sure would agree that this present state we find ourselves in is the only thing that we are all in together. We may not all agree all the time but there is always something happening here and people who will identify with your situation are more assured now than when they first joined because they see that we are not sitting back but looking to fight back. Sorry to hear about the death of your Grandmother and in circumstances which you would rather not have happened, and for quite a while losing her will attribute to you feeling very low. As Grumpy recommended take a look at Anna Brees, look around the forum and pick on something that you can vent your feelings on. Join the fight on how we all feel about the NHS the big let down of all time, and Grandma's neglect and Grumpy's too. Have a go, you'll soon get hooked. We are out on our own and as my son says 'a bit special. So here goes it starts here for you and a road back.🌼
To you lovely people. It‘s a horrid time for us lot on here, although there are lots of us it still feels that we are alone. Keep your chin up and remember although its not the same as a real hug, if there comes a time when we can meet up there will be so many hugs we will be all hugged out 😍
TJC you're a ⭐️
So much sadness and pain caused by the unnecessary hysteria that is surrounding us. I hear you, I wish I could hug you, though you are physically alone at the moment I know you realise there are many of us 'with you' who have either gone through similar times and/or empathise with you. As Busker said it is good if you can turn your feelings into something you can use, go for a walk somewhere green, put your tunes on - I have had to create a 'dance me happy' playlist, it has songs on that I can bop around in my kitchen to, it helps me, something similar might help you. xx
Thanks everyone, it means a lot <3
And so sorry to hear that you are all struggling too.
Good to know, I'm not the only one who can see this nonsense for what it is. All this fuss over a virus with a survival rate of nearly 99.7 and so, so much completely unnecessary suffering as a result.
Just wish I could go to sleep and wake up and it's all a bad dream.
I'd even have the vaccine right now if it was available (whether it's certified safe or not) and I have a needle phobia. Anything that would give me my freedom back, I would do at this point I don't care what it takes. The only thing I can't do is face the masks because my reasons for struggling to wear them for extended periods of time are very personal and I don't want to have to explain them to every Karen in the supermarket who throws a hissy-fit.
Thanks, everyone :)
I am very sorry that you are feeling so depressed and alone, and empathise with the loss of your grandma. As Twinkle, Grumpy, Busker, RM and TJC have said you are certainly not alone. I think everyone on this site cares very much for each other and humanity as a whole and deplores what has been happening since this Plandemic kicked off.
Please don't feel that you'd willingly subject yourself to the vaccine though. This is all happening BECAUSE the globalists want to make people so desperate that they will agree to anything, particularly Bill Gates' "vaccine". It is not even a vaccine in the true sense of the word since it is not medicine. Gates' "vaccine" is intended to change your DNA, turn you into a transhuman and connect you to the Cloud (Internet of Things). It would also insert Gates' quantum dot mark of the beast beneath your skin.
As the others have said, challenge your justifiable outrage into a determination to expose the real agenda of this Plandemic. Don't let the bastards win.
@Veritas et Libertas I totally agree, the vaccine is another fight we have to not be mandated. I have never been against vaccinations but this is a whole new ball game. My grown up children have been brainwashed and think we are conspiracy theorists much to my sadness. We have a big fight on our hands and I don’t know if we will win. It’s hard going but we have each other, though I do feel a bit silly hugging my IPAD 😜 as there are no normal humans to be found 😫
Hello there Anonymous Person, I have struggled a lot during lockdown and have had some very, very dark days. What has helped me greatly is what a friend of mine said, no regime has ever lasted!
And also, start getting ploitically active. I joined the Resistance movement in May and it really helps to work alongside likeminded people for the good of our future! This past week I was very low and I mean VERY low but when I went out flyering with our group I felt better! At least I was doing something worthwhile.
One more thing: whoever "they" are, that are orchestrating this evil Drama, "they" want people like us dead!!! That gives me yet another reason to stay in this world until my God calls me home.
Please don't give up.
I am so very, very sorry to hear of your Grandma passing away - this must be such a difficult time for you 😔
Life must seem so hopeless for you right now especially with out having family and friends near you . There is a site called ‘MeetUps ‘ which is a group that has sites all around the UK that arrange events and meet ups for all sorts of activities . Perhaps take a look on there to see what’s going on in your area ?
If you like swimming then why not look at Wild Swimming groups in your area who meet up to swim in the sea, rivers or lakes together . Wild swimming has been proven to help with depression and raising the spirits . If you are into more intellectual pursuits then again there are many ‘debating/ philosophical groups that meet online around the UK .
Meditation is a very helpful thing too as is going out walking /running in the outdoors - particularly in more rural settings . Remember you are NEVER alone - there are many help sites out there eg Samaritans if you are feeling desperate and cannot see any light at the end of the tunnel right now . You are grieving and this is a double whammy for you so you need to go easy on yourself - self care is very important .Be gentle with yourself at this very difficukt time if real loss.
Things WILL turn out alright , the world will be a better place . There is much good taking place behind closed doors - evil will not win this ‘war’. There is a major shift taking place on this planet and if we stand strong , keep visualising the world we want to see and live in, then this will really help you and the world to become that .
Trust and have faith . It is not what happens to us but how we RESPOND to events . We always have a choice of how we respond to anything - even to all that is going on at the present time .
I am sending you much love and big hugs , fellow soul 🤗
Thank you :)
I've joined some meetups now but most aren't meeting much
I also went outdoor swimming a couple of weeks ago, it was good but most people keep to themselves and don't interact much- still better than being alone though.
I've spent pretty much all day looking for mental health support groups and have found 1 which may potentially be meeting in person soon and they don't mandate muzzles so that's given me some hope. :)
I know what it's like, having spent the last 5 solitary months working from home.
I've just started a new meetup group @ https://www.meetup.com/Guildford-Resist-New-Normal-Meetup-Group/. If anyone is interested in getting this going, let me know and we can arrange the first meetup.
Bad enough working from home for 2 weeks so far myself (well I can technically go into an empty office if I want to). I was redeployed but I'm back at my original job now and no patients as community mental health teams aren't open so all office work. I shouldn't complain really, I like my job but I'm fed up with the loneliness.
I can't begin to imagine what 5 months must have been like, makes me think o the movie 'I am legend' where he talks to the shop mannequins and gives them names- that's pretty much what I would start doing 🤣
If I lived nearby I'd join your meetup group but I'm up in the northwest unfortunately :L
So sorry to hear how you feel and what you are going through. Don't let this get you down which is exactly what they want to do to those that see through their deceit. Just keep posting whenever you feel the need. There will always be someone here to respond. 😀Remember sorrows shared are sorrows halved.
Thanks for your message. Meetup have refused my group because it did not meet their lousy guidelines, apparently. I sent them a reply with one word: cowardice.
I understand what your going to.
Due to a health condition I've been pretty isolated for 4years, totally for 2 years since I moved to a new area.
I found it difficult before, but seeing this madness makes it hard, more so that the vast majority of population are just accepting it, that's what really scares me and depresses me the most.
Yesterday I went to see my mam 2hour journey away, went to a cafe, they refused me entry because I refused to use hand sanitizer.
My mam and step dad still have them there business. I just went home, totally wasted trip.
Just had a big falling out with my mam about it. She claims to sympathise with me, yet can't say "no" to the new abnormal.
She was the only person I speak to.
I suffer periods of depression, more so now I have a health condition that has left me unable to work and very isolated.
I'm aware I don't think I'll be alive in a year's time. But I'm not going quietly.
I will live by the mantra "give me liberty or give me death".
I fear it won't be long before those if us prepared to resist and fight back will be labelled as domestic terrorists and the last three decades of erroding civil rights and liberties under anti terrorism legislation will be used against us.
I'm prepared to fight this, I mean fight, if/ when it comes to it.
It's possible this post will be enough for them to come for me. Let them. I won't go easily, like I said liberty or death.
Sorry I haven't offered you "support" here, just trying to say you're not alone.
And perhaps be thankfull that you still have a job, and friends even if at a distance or away often.
There's some of us in total isolation, even before covid nonsense started
Be grateful for what you do have. And keep fighting the tyranny
Hey David. Any message here is a form or support. You are not alone. We are all fighting the same fight and they can't win as long as we keep pushing. The most difficult thing I find is convincing someone close be it family or friend.
So sorry to hear about your situation and isolation.
I definitely feel lucky to have a job especially in this current complete destruction of the economy. And also feel lucky to have the few connections I have who I do visit in person none of this 'virtual' crap which will never replace real socialising no matter how much the mainstream push it.
Totally with you on preferring to die than live like this and I something I've definitely noticed is that those who are considered 'vulnerable' and told to 'shield' often share this outlook we have. My (other, still alive) grandmother said to me that she might not have long left (85 yo) and would rather enjoy it and take the risk than be miserable, my other Nan who died recently had the same attitude towards the end. There is a difference between a 'life' and a mere existence.
If it helps at all, I'm happy to listen if you ever need someone to vent to even though I'm a stranger.
I will keep fighting too, the more of us who speak out, the more chance we have. 🙂
Thing about trying to convince anyone about all this is that you end up feeling annoyed, frustrated and hopeless knowing you are right, and they just carry on
oblivious. Take hope from the fact that given time dawn will break and you will has the satisfaction of feeling vindicated, so hang on in there. We have to win.
Feels like the daily mail could write that sky is green and the sheeple would not only believe it without question, they'd go round telling everyone else who knows it's blue that they're wrong 🤣
@Anonymous person I do think that although it seems like we have been here forever, when furloughing ends and its time to get back to work, problems with schools and children being masked then the lid will blow and things may start to change. I heard
today that there is 1 case of Bubonic Plaque in China is that the next Pandemic scare
lined up for us? just a thought but wouldn't put it past them. All they have to do is open their mouths even without evidence and the sheep will follow.
@TwinkleToes See Bubonic Plague I would actually be wary of given the mortality rate of 70% (without fast treatment) makes it about 185 times as deadly as covid 🙄 but strangely I'm unbothered as I don't believe a single word printed or spoken in the media anymore
I've just realised, we're not feeling depressed, but oppressed
Well said Dave. Bloody well said. Consider your comment liked at least 20 times!
I'm so sorry to hear about your gran. What is going on is so cruel and inhumane! I work with special needs kids and I'm dreading going back to work as it involves being out in the community as a role model which means I will be forced to wear a mask and make the kids with whom I work do the same. I completely relate to your feelings of hopelessness and depression as I'm sure many others here do - Know you aren't alone in that regard! (As little a consolation as that is). As another poster said, there is Meetups.com but it sounds like they're sold on this monumental lie as well. (For that poster: I wonder if there is a way around their guidelines, i.e: naming the group KBF (insert town / city here) and making the listing deliberately coded?) I wish I could make you feel better about this but in place of that, all I can suggest is keep visiting these boards and get all the support you can. Sending love your way from someone who is usually a huge misanthrope! ❤️