here are some ideas you may find useful.
Stop watching and reading so much legacy media, even if you don't believe what they are saying, they are filling your head with messages to undermine your thoughts and actions under the direction of the government and the Behavioural Insights Team. https://www.gov.uk/government/organisations/behavioural-insights-team
Basically, the government is gaslighting you. https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Gaslighting
Always read or listen to